Doubts :/

I'm starting ta feel real shitty now. Why? Reasons are as follows:

i) Ma daddy just had to had a row wiff me. = = +

ii) Ma stinkin' boyfie also just had to had a row. OMG. ><+

'Tis been a hell of a day but I still manage to not cry. Awesome! I guess all those times I was always crying made me upgrade my tear ducts or somethin'. You'd think when you had a row with yerr family yerr boyfriend would comfort you & try to support you. Well guess what dumbass? That's my boyfriend. = =

Ughhhhhhhhhh! I'm so bummed I can't even write ma frickin' blog! Thanks for making my day worser, MY LOVE. F**kin' love ya. *pukes*

Seriously?

WOW.

So much for 'I don't wanna fight with you babe, I love you.'

Well you can kiss my ass crack.

Wanna know the story?

NO?

Hah! Too late, you're in my blog now.

Here goes:

930PM:

boyfriend: Are your parents home yet, honey?

me: Nope.

boyfriend: I though you said they'd be home at 9.

me: Well I don't know..

*boyfriend & me text text text, yada yada yada.. then BOOM!*

1117PM:

*boyfriend calls*

me: Hello?

boyfriend: Are your parents home yet?

me: No not yet.

boyfriend: *sounds angry* 'Kay. *call disconnected*

I was like, 'what the hell?'

*calls up boyfriend*

boyfriend: *sounds sleepy* What?

me: *feeling pissed off like shit* What was that?

boyfriend: That what?

me: You hangin' up on me. THAT.

boyfriend: I wanna go to bed.

me: I don't care. I told you a million times already, I'D NEVER CHEAT ON YOU! Is it so damn hard for you to trust me? Geez. *temper sky-rocketing*

boyfriend: Alright, fine. I trust you okay. Go to sleep.

*I'm not stupid you know, I know when you're lying. You sooooo don't trust me, do ya?*

me: Seriously, you're kiddin' me right? Look, God knows how am I ever gonna convince you that I'd never cheat on you. And God knows you'd be super duper dumb if you didn't believe every single word I just told you.

boyfriend: I told you, I trust you. Now go to sleep already.

me: 'Kay.

boyfriend: *sounds pissed & grumpy* 'Kay. I love you! BYE.

*click* = call disconnected. = =+

THE END

Seriously?

OMG.

You didn't had to spat those 3 words if you didn't wanna say it stupid.

Didn't force you to say it.

What made me tick was the fact that you TOTALLY don't frickin' trust me.

I am so tired of tellin' you the same stuff every single damn time!

I've put up with your shit for almost 2 years!

Can't you give me a little credit for putting up with your crap?

OMG.

Can't believe you'd let me feel like I'm so.. worthless.

Night  y'all. :'(

Mean by Taylor Swift

You..

With you words like knives and swords and weapons that you used against me,

You..

Had knocked me off my feet again,

Got me feeling like I`m nothing,

You..

With your voice like nails on a chalkboard calling me out when I`m wounded,

You..

Picking on the weaker man..

Well, you can knock me down

With just one single blow..

But you don`t know what you don`t know..

Someday..

I`ll be living in a big old city..

And all you`re ever gonna be is mean..

Someday..

I`ll be big enough so you can`t hit me..

And all you`re ever gonna be is mean..

Why you gotta be so mean?

You..

With your switching sides and your wildfire lies and your humiliation,

You..

Had pointed out my flaws again,

As if I don`t already see them,

I`ll walk with my head down,

Tryna block you out `cause I`ll never impress you,

I just wanna feel okay again..

I bet you got pushed around..

Somebody made you cold..

But the cycle ends right now..

`Cause you can`t lead me down that road..

And you don`t know what you don`t know..

Someday..

I`ll be living in a big old city..

And all you`re ever gonna be is mean..

Someday..

I`ll be big enough so you can`t hit me..

And all you`re ever gonna be is mean..

Why you gotta be so mean?

And I can see you years from now in a bar, 

Talking over a football game,

With that same big loud opinion but nobody's listening,

Washed up and ranting about the same old bitter things,

Drunk and grumbling on about how I can't sing..

But all you are is mean..

All you are is mean..

And a liar, and pathetic, and alone in life,

And mean..

And mean..

And mean..

And mean..

But someday..

I`ll be living in a big old city..

And all you`re ever gonna be is mean..

Yeahh..

Someday..

I`ll be big enough so you can`t hit me..

And all you`re ever gonna be is mean..

Why you gotta be so mean?

Someday, I'll be, living in a big old city

(Why you gotta be so mean?)

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

(Why you gotta be so mean?)

Someday, I'll be big enough so you can't hit me

(Why you gotta be so mean?)

And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

these lyrics are submitted by Zoe! who sat writing all the lyrics out herself :)

these lyrics are last corrected by Me:)

Sleeping With A Broken Heart Everynight

How.. how can it be possible?
Just a few days ago we were both happy and in a loving mood.
Now? Haha.
KISSMYASS.
Look pal, I know I lied to you last time,
But it still doesn`t gives you a legitimate reason to accuse me of something terrible!
How could you..
After all we`ve been through..
After all I1ve done for you..
After all the bullshitting crap that I had to go through just to stay with YOU!
And now you are telling me that you DON`T TRUST ME?
What the hell dude?

You told me to be honest with you & tell the frickin` truth.
BAH. Ng pn ku udh jujo, p agk juak xcyak an aku.
Mala jak nyuoh aku jujo, udh jujo laa aku tok.
P agk juak bulak bagi kau.
You think you are that innocent right now?
Ok, so what if I`m the bad guy?
I know its my fault.
You lied to me last time, and what did I do?
I frickin` forgave you thats what!
So why dear, WHY is it so damn hard for you to do the same for me?
My heart can`t breathe..
I can`t sleep..
All nights, dreamless without you..
I have no appetite whatsoever..
I can`t even know my feelings..
I am so confused right now..
And I know you are too because you are doubting my love for you.

You say this and that..
All those accusations are not true..
But you`re just too blind to see through it..
And it breaks my heart so bad..
How could you.. x'(

Jar Of Hearts

I know I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

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JAR OF HEARTS..

Falling Stars by DAVID ARCHULETA

When you forget me
When you don't remember my name
Not even a memory
Somewhere in the back of your brain
I won't be offended
Cause I always knew that the day
Will come when I'm not enough to make you stay
Tell me it's not possible,
No way that we could break
But nothing is illogical, believe me

Like falling stars over your head
They've been bound to burn out, burn out
Crashing 'cause I'll never get over you, never over you
'Cause you are so beautiful, yeah

The world is turning,and time keeps on lingering on
The sun will be burning
Eventually you will be gone

I'll always love you
Oh believe it or not
Baby that's not enough to, not enough to stop these...

Falling stars over your head
They've been bound to burn out, burn out
Crashing 'cause I'll never get over you, never over you
You are so beautiful, yeah

When it's all said and done
I'll just be a speck in the galaxy
Floating far away by gravity
Tell me it's not possible that we could break

Like falling stars
Like crashing cars
Like falling stars over your head
They've been bound to burn out, burn out
Crashing 'cause I'll never get over you, never over you, oh
You are so beautiful
You are so beautiful, yeah

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MY BESTEST FRIEND. :)

Hello! I just wanna tell you a wee-bit about my best friend. He's always there for me & he always makes me laugh. I don't know what I'd do without him. You rock, Faiz. :)

HERE's A PIC. OF FAIZ:

yes, I know how you feel when you see this pic.

disturbing, isn't it?

hahahahaha.

Paiz tok xpnah alu ada gamba kcak. = ='

mala jak gamba LANGSANG diambik nya ya.

but thats what I like about him,

his LANGSANGNESS makes him special.

he's unique, he's crazy(GB) XD

and most important, he never lets his friends down.

mun susah, sama2 susah. 

udah 4 taun mekduak bkawan.

smpe knek, agk juak. makin rapat mekduak knek.

WE ARE AWESOME! :D

YOU ARE MY BESTEST FRIEND FAIZ! :D